But for me, it totally is. I started out so pumped and motivated. The majority of the time I have continued to feel that way. The last two weeks have been very challenging for me. I've hurt my leg, which has slowed me down with the exercising. But yet my appetite has increased majorly. Along with my desire to eat foods that have not even been that much of a temptation for me up until this point. Every single day- several times a day- I have had to remind myself of my goal and pray for perseverance. I have stood at the pantry door praying that I will choose wise things to eat so I can finish up the goals that I have set for myself. Last night Jonathan walks in the kitchen to find me standing in front of the pantry with my eyes closed. He laughed and said, "What are you doing?" I said praying. I actually do that a lot lately, right here.
It's not that I think that choosing to have a "cheat" would be horrible or the end of the world. It's just the talk that's going on in my head of - this is too hard, I can't do this forever, I may as well just quit. All lies I know. I just have had to talk back and forth to myself. The whole reason I'm doing this is to choose a healthier lifestyle and take care of my body. Weight loss is not the ultimate goal. I guess my flesh has just gotten caught up in that.
Needless to say the last few weeks have left me to feel emotional, and a little nutty. My prayer is that I will continue to try and bring glory to God through the way I take care of my body. I had to break a lot of bad habits. I guess now that my body has gotten in the groove my mind is having to catch up.
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